i wish i knew.

hm, its been a while ive actually blogged on this. times have changed. im actually getting fit again running or biking every weekend and the weights every other weekday. ruby's cotillion was the shit! ahahaha. such a good day to have HELLA fun. made up for that week. chelsea's cotillion is coming up and on the same day i get to go to PGA for mothers company picnic. looking forward to that day, kinda. shiiit i hate going trying to go to sleep and having so much to think of. i dont know why i still do. its too late anyways, i bet. i hate having to assume, i wish i didnt have too so i could stop thinking about it. all i gotta say is i still feel the same, i wish it was easier to forget but its all i think of. just gotta let time pass. oh well, "gotta get a breather or else ill either fall down and get back up and maintain" i need one of these. off to go running. peace!